To my friend...


at last,
           I over came the scheduled
                             life style,
          which was full of agony 
                             and depression,
          It looks like a nightmare 
          That was killing me in
                            every seconds....


          I never did think about 
                    the vanished memories
                    till then....
          I never did understand
                   the value of friendship
                   till then....


          It was like a miracle that,
               a friend came into 
                                my life,
         Who had thoughts similar 
                to mine in every aspects....


          But,
              I didn't cared a lot and
               never became a
                  good friend at all...


            Like the stars fall 
                                 and
           Black holes remain,
                 You died ,
                        but
             Memories remain....


            They were pulling me,
                  into the depth of darkness,
             and I understood,
              I never understood you......


          It was a few days back
                    i realized,
                life has to go on.......


         But it made a change
                       to my life,
             that,
           I will never ignore someone
                      who cares me...
               and i know 
                 i can forget you never,
           miss you
                   till the end...!    

LONELY

I have a lot to tell you...

about the depth of 

              loneliness....

about the days which passes by,

         not being cared and 

         not being needed

It was like 

      you feel desperate 

                     and

     calling and asking 

            everyone for help....

At the midnight 

           you were awake

messaging to find out

anyone out of sleep...

If you find some one 

  they were contented with love,

there was no need for

                  "you" there...

You were like the

        only human,

in the world,

 no one knows if you die 

at this moment...

You needed a touch,

 which is warm 

          and soothing.

but you can only feel

    the cold breeze,

through the window...

Night is so cold as 

   what loneliness always is.

It is just the darkness 

which makes you think more.

There are some depths,

which where 

banned from crossing...

If you once cross,

 you can never get rid of it...

You feel addicted and 

  admire the depths more,

only to find that

  you are alone in this place...

Some thing is moving,

      just a shade or

                      an object.

But you feel like screaming...

That is what it 

              all about.

 

 MY LIFE- MY DRAMA

its too late to argue...
            too late to repent.
its over midnight and
             i'm so tired of thinking.


life has no stops to wait for,
            and people passes near by me...


i'm standing still,
           pretending that
there is some one coming for me...


i know there is no one,
as everyone is so lonely,
              that there is no need for waiting...


but, the thought, that 
i'm waiting
give me some pleasure,
because it gives a meaning 
to my life,
even though it is a waste.....


hoping, pretending and acting
    like what i'm not
i'm tired of being
            what i'm not......! 

ROOTS OF PAIN

it kills....

like some poison injected to my veins

i never knew ,,,,,

it was always there

like some virus

it was dormant,

waiting for the right time

to strike as hard as it can...........

it is by the pain now,

i"m suffering a lot

Not by the people,

not by the words

it is just the pain

sleeping deep in my heart

it is hurting deep

in the throat

blocking all my words,

Deep in the brain that

pull me deep into sleep.

not getting comfort,

it hurts me in dreams,

when i wake up

i feel my eyes wet...

like memories fading

i can see the fading laughs

there is darkness,

through which the pain

gets brighter

with the strong roots

pain deepens more and more..

no tears but no laughs

I'm here ,

as lonely as always.......................